STRESSFUL!

I'm scared to see the ending why are we pretending this is nothing i'd tell you i miss you but i don't know how i've ever heard silence quite this loud. OKAY ! It's 12am ! MERRY CHRISTMAS :). okay , today is Christmas . and i'm celebrating it alone at home i guess. that guy still never reply my message :< urgh . sad. Michelle going to WildWildWet tomorrow and daddy is working and i think my bro working too. OMGOSH ! why must work. okay , i don't feel really good now. i'm damn stressful :x. feel like crying out loud now :(. i guess i needa see Xin li yi shen :x. am i having depression? i hope not. i feel like everybody's hating me. i feel that i can't trust anybody . even closes to me . omgosh how? feeling damn stressful. i wish i was just a small girl. than i will have no trouble in love . all i needa do is cry and my mummy will make me happy. urgh i want that kind out life. where my sister and brother will give in to me . everything is like happening so fast. urgh. i think he's gonna leave me. okay , i seriously have no idea. i just feel like ending my life here. and let go of everything. so stressful. nobody for me to trust . no one will hear what i say . no one care how i feel. i'm just so lonely. it's like hoilday now and i'm still so stressful . then iff holiday ends and normal school days start , i'm gonna die soon. homeworks will be like truckloads of them . hayah fuck my life lah . okay , my phone is spammed with all those Christmas wishes. okay . Manfred cheering me up. but i'm still so stressful. many problems. relationship ? trust ? everything . except money . i have lots of it . okay just joking. i want to go CountDown and i want to stay out late....... omgosh. urgh i want to end my lifeeeeeeeeeee :(. felt so unwanted. :(:(. want to get back to my previous life lah :<. my boyfriend ignoring me . okay . dun wanna say the reason here. Manfred going crazy because of me. cause i told him i want to die.